[ she watches him for a moment, trying to gauge his true reaction. it's a little hard to when he's so good at putting up a front, but katherine can only hope she's starting to read between the lines with him. ]
So you don't feel anything being trapped in here as we are? I want you to be honest.
[ maybe she needs to tighten the space, but she doesn't want to. ]
I don't know. I don't...like it but I can deal with it. I can deal with it.
( maybe that was better than 'i'm fine.' he doesn't really want to be trapped anywhere but this isn't so bad. he's not panicking and he can focus and tell himself there's space. )
katherine licks her lips and wonders if that's her cue to bring it in. she doesn't want to go hard all too soon... but she doesn't want to not help him, either. ]
Should I... make it feel smaller? Or is this enough for now?
[ whatever he chooses to do will be fine by her. she doubts this will be a one time thing. she hopes it isn't—she really enjoys having his trust.
she ensures to brush her fingers against his cheek and smile softly at him. ] You're doing well, Stefan.
( he's okay right now but he doesn't want to chance it. he thinks if he'd gone without choking her tonight, he might have been better able to handle it but he needs more time. )
This is enough. I don't...want anymore.
( it's hard to admit because he wants to be able to handle everything but he knows he can't. )
[ katherine honours that choice and doesn't make the invisible walls come any closer to him. she has a feeling his insistence of being fine is more for himself than for her. she would imagine this would make him feel panicked in some way. ]
We'll just stay like this for a little while. [ she shuffles closer to him and lies down on her back, letting her arm brush against his. ]
( he's still wary that, despite her words, these walls will close in but when he doesn't feel that choking lack of space, he takes a breath and feels himself relax very slightly. )
[ the great katherine pierce had only thought of a dark place of existence. ]
I did put us in a very big, wooden coffin. [ buried somewhere, maybe. the darkness is as far as she's thought of, not wanting to put too much energy in conjuring up something so traumatising for him right after he's had an episode. ]
Should've given us at least a pillow, but it's too late now. [ it's a joke, but something she'll consider for next time. ]
( vampires and their coffins, that is. he takes a breath, even managing a light laugh as he lays there. he does reach out a hand every so often just to make sure he can still stretch it out and not bump anything. )
[ she does think to ask him if he wants her to do that, but she figures he wouldn't have asked unless he did. katherine moves so that she's lying on top of him—in both the dream and in reality—and rests her head on his shoulder. she wraps her arm around his middle. ]
I thought it'd be poetic. Have you ever slept in a coffin? I can tell you, it's not fun.
A very long time ago. It may have been with Dracula.
[ she scrunches up her face thoughtfully. it's very clear that she's teasing. all she wants is for him to feel good about himself, especially after tonight's events.
she brushes her hand against his chest. ] You're my favourite vampire.
[ it's still an odd descriptor for him and her—for "stefan and katherine"—but she lifts her head and peers down at him with a small smile. it's still strange to think that she and stefan have come this far—or even taken this step at all—but despite how it makes her feel uncomfortably out of her element, she's learned to trust that he'll make sure she doesn't stumble.
the black nothingness starts to slowly bleed back into the warm light of his bedroom. ]
[ while she's no stranger to men fighting over her, stefan actually putting on his boxing gloves for the first time since he's known her would be very wild and very unpredictable. it's something she likes the idea of.
she looks down at his shoulder and traces the tip of her finger against the fabric of his shirt. ]
[ she did know that… but she likes the confirmation, especially since she does often find herself worrying about elena and caroline. it means something coming from stefan. it always means something coming from him. ]
Good.
[ it's a soft parroting of his words.
she leans forward to press a kiss to the tip of his nose. ] It's going to take some time, but we'll get through this together.
[ the safe, silas, whatever else is nested in this ptsd of his. ]
[ her brows furrow together as she peers down at him. it's such a strange yet cute observation—she hadn't even known whether or not she has kissed him on the nose before. ]
Did you not like it?
[ despite her question, she does smile. she has a feeling he'd like anything she does—her habit of tracing his face, kissing his nose, his brow... as long as she's kissing him, she thinks he's happy. ]
[ that makes her feel all warm and gooey on the inside, but also bold to be somewhat gentle in a way katherine pierce isn't marketed to be. ]
Hm. What about this kiss?
[ she's quick to drop a kiss to his cheek. ]
Or this one?
[ then she drops a kiss to his brow. katherine doesn't ask if she likes a kiss to his hairline or the shell of his ear, or even the corner of his lip. ]
[ is he saying all of this because she's his dating partner? she thinks so. she hopes he ends up saying a lot more because of this shift in their relationship.
lying on her side, katherine reaches for his arm so she can bring his hand up to her neck. while she fully expects him to freak out and possibly recoil, she ensures to place her palm over the back of his hand. ]
( the stiffness from before returns quickly and he tries to yank his hand away, feeling the guilt seep back into his skin. she has a grip on him, though, and all he can do is look away. )
Please.
( she's calmed him down but he can't forget what he'd done. )
[ although she does briefly wonder if she's upsetting the very delicate balance she's created in the faux safe, katherine knows she has to do this. he won't touch her neck again if she doesn't at least try to show that while there are bruises there, he can't hurt her. ]
You're touching my neck very gently, Stefan. You're not hurting me.
[ she keeps her hand flat against his and ensuring her breathing stays even. he's not hurting her, and she wants him to understand that. ]
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So you don't feel anything being trapped in here as we are? I want you to be honest.
[ maybe she needs to tighten the space, but she doesn't want to. ]
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( maybe that was better than 'i'm fine.' he doesn't really want to be trapped anywhere but this isn't so bad. he's not panicking and he can focus and tell himself there's space. )
I'm good, I promise.
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katherine licks her lips and wonders if that's her cue to bring it in. she doesn't want to go hard all too soon... but she doesn't want to not help him, either. ]
Should I... make it feel smaller? Or is this enough for now?
[ whatever he chooses to do will be fine by her. she doubts this will be a one time thing. she hopes it isn't—she really enjoys having his trust.
she ensures to brush her fingers against his cheek and smile softly at him. ] You're doing well, Stefan.
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( he's okay right now but he doesn't want to chance it. he thinks if he'd gone without choking her tonight, he might have been better able to handle it but he needs more time. )
This is enough. I don't...want anymore.
( it's hard to admit because he wants to be able to handle everything but he knows he can't. )
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[ katherine honours that choice and doesn't make the invisible walls come any closer to him. she has a feeling his insistence of being fine is more for himself than for her. she would imagine this would make him feel panicked in some way. ]
We'll just stay like this for a little while. [ she shuffles closer to him and lies down on her back, letting her arm brush against his. ]
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( he's still wary that, despite her words, these walls will close in but when he doesn't feel that choking lack of space, he takes a breath and feels himself relax very slightly. )
Are we anywhere specific right now?
( he knows she's in his head, at least. )
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[ the great katherine pierce had only thought of a dark place of existence. ]
I did put us in a very big, wooden coffin. [ buried somewhere, maybe. the darkness is as far as she's thought of, not wanting to put too much energy in conjuring up something so traumatising for him right after he's had an episode. ]
Should've given us at least a pillow, but it's too late now. [ it's a joke, but something she'll consider for next time. ]
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( vampires and their coffins, that is. he takes a breath, even managing a light laugh as he lays there. he does reach out a hand every so often just to make sure he can still stretch it out and not bump anything. )
You can lay on me if you're uncomfortable.
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I thought it'd be poetic. Have you ever slept in a coffin? I can tell you, it's not fun.
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( the closest he's come is...the safe, he guesses and that hadn't really been sleeping. he'd just been dying. )
When did you sleep in a coffin?
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[ she scrunches up her face thoughtfully. it's very clear that she's teasing. all she wants is for him to feel good about himself, especially after tonight's events.
she brushes her hand against his chest. ] You're my favourite vampire.
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( his voice is still slightly strained as he says that but it's not as bad as it was before. )
Don't you?
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[ it's still an odd descriptor for him and her—for "stefan and katherine"—but she lifts her head and peers down at him with a small smile. it's still strange to think that she and stefan have come this far—or even taken this step at all—but despite how it makes her feel uncomfortably out of her element, she's learned to trust that he'll make sure she doesn't stumble.
the black nothingness starts to slowly bleed back into the warm light of his bedroom. ]
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( he knows it's just him. even though he still has something over his eyes in the real world, he can feel the darkness starting to fade somehow. )
Do I have to go fight anyone?
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[ while she's no stranger to men fighting over her, stefan actually putting on his boxing gloves for the first time since he's known her would be very wild and very unpredictable. it's something she likes the idea of.
she looks down at his shoulder and traces the tip of her finger against the fabric of his shirt. ]
What if it's just you?
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( because he wants it to just be him. he wants it to just be him and her and no sharing allowed. )
It's just you for me, you know.
( just in case she was wondering. )
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Good.
[ it's a soft parroting of his words.
she leans forward to press a kiss to the tip of his nose. ] It's going to take some time, but we'll get through this together.
[ the safe, silas, whatever else is nested in this ptsd of his. ]
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( it makes him smile, that little display of intimacy. )
As long as we've known each other and as much as we've done, I think that's the first time you've kissed me there.
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Did you not like it?
[ despite her question, she does smile. she has a feeling he'd like anything she does—her habit of tracing his face, kissing his nose, his brow... as long as she's kissing him, she thinks he's happy. ]
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( he seems to relax a little further now, feeling himself back in a comfortable place and less anxiety now that the darkness had faded away. )
You should know that by now.
( had he not told her that yet? )
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Hm. What about this kiss?
[ she's quick to drop a kiss to his cheek. ]
Or this one?
[ then she drops a kiss to his brow. katherine doesn't ask if she likes a kiss to his hairline or the shell of his ear, or even the corner of his lip. ]
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( his eyes slip closed and he sighs, letting some of his tension ebb away. )
You're very good at kissing. Very good.
( just in case she wasn't aware. he turns, curling into her and reaching to wrap an arm around her. )
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lying on her side, katherine reaches for his arm so she can bring his hand up to her neck. while she fully expects him to freak out and possibly recoil, she ensures to place her palm over the back of his hand. ]
And you're very good at taking care of me.
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( the stiffness from before returns quickly and he tries to yank his hand away, feeling the guilt seep back into his skin. she has a grip on him, though, and all he can do is look away. )
Please.
( she's calmed him down but he can't forget what he'd done. )
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You're touching my neck very gently, Stefan. You're not hurting me.
[ she keeps her hand flat against his and ensuring her breathing stays even. he's not hurting her, and she wants him to understand that. ]
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