( he's fine with it. he can hire someone to come over and repair the cracked sink but right now, he has something else on his mind and it's not the fact that the smell of her blood is still in his nose and overwhelming him and he's still resisting biting her again.
he breathes shakily and cranes his neck a bit to look at her. )
Do you want to — ( stefan reaches around her, hand snaking down because she's come once but he knows he can probably get her there again. )
[ looking at him from the corner of her eye, she catches his hand in hers and presses it against her abdomen. ] I'm fine. [ while she would love to have all of his attention on her again and come because of his fingers or mouth, katherine finds that she doesn't have the intense craving for it. he's already made her come; getting him off had been her objective, and she thinks she's gotten far more than that out of it.
leaning back against him, she makes a noise when she feels him shift slightly inside of her. with a smile, ] I think we should spare your house from crumbling even more tonight, don't you think?
( he nods, using the arm around her waist to hug her to him. he sighs, leaning against her back and dropping his forehead down to her shoulder. he's tired but not overly so. he's emotionally cleaned up but being able to be with her tonight has helped. )
Do you want to come back to bed with me?
( he really hopes so. he doesn't want to be alone tonight. )
[ she says it with no hesitation. of course she'll come back with him. there's no other place she'd rather be, even if he hadn't had his mother appear and possibly put him in a weirder place mentally and emotionally. she doesn't want to leave him alone unless he requests it, and even if he does, she'd take his couch or sleep in another room.
she does pull him to her in her own effort to hug him. she turns to face him as best she can and uncharacteristically kisses the top of his head. ] Take me to bed, Stefan. [ then she smiles, amused. ] Unless you'd like me to carry you.
No, that's fine. I can — ( he steps back, sliding out of her and shivering. he puts a hand on her shoulder and then pushes himself away again, giving them some distance. he stretches and then gets a look at her.
she's bleeding and black and blue and he starts to apologize but stops himself just as the words are coming out. he laughs and rubs at his mouth before shaking his head. )
Come on. ( he reaches for her hand, pulling her close and draping that arm over her shoulders. ) Let's go to bed.
[ she will never get used to him embracing her like this. katherine's surprised for only a moment before she steps into him and wraps her arm around his waist, pressing herself more closely to him. she's not going to spend this time wondering and questioning it and ultimately pushing him away when she can have him close and touching her just like this.
he wants to pull her into him, and she's not intending to step out of his embrace.
she walks slowly, trying to waken her muscles from staying in such a tight and tense position. her entire body feels sore, but katherine isn't going to complain. all she does is groan when she starts walking. ]
My hips are going to be so sore in a few hours. [ she laughs, reaching to palm the arm hanging around her shoulders. ] Don't say sorry. I like it.
( he doesn't think she'll need it but he says it anyway. he winds them back to his bedroom, opening the door and then shutting it when they were both inside. he walks her over to the bed, letting her take a seat before circling around and sliding back into bed himself. )
Wait. ( stefan makes a face and rolls out of bed to grab a towel for her. then, he comes back, passing it to her so she can wipe at her neck since he doesn't think he should be licking it clean and tempting them both again. )
[ just before she lies down, he tells her to wait. sitting upright, she looks at him confused. she should've expected it, but she doesn't. she's not used to anyone taking care of her, let alone stefan salvatore.
she takes the towel from him and very hesitantly presses it to her neck. it's not out of any fear of it hurting her, but the fact that she's going to stain his towel and ruin another one of his possessions tonight. asking him to clean it up for her would be pushing him too far, and she doesn't want to corner him.
quietly, ] Thanks. [ she pulls a face of discomfort as she wipes up the blood, folding the towel over so she's not smearing it all over her neck and shoulder with a wet towel.
she moves to sit cross-legged on the bed and looks at him. ] Are you okay?
[ she's tempted to tell him she doesn't need the ice, but she does like him taking care of her. is that so bad? maybe he needs it after tonight, even though she feels like she should be the one looking after him. ]
( stefan's well aware that she doesn't need ice and he might not even get it for her but he wants to do something and say something. he wants to help always. where she sits cross legged, stefan lays on his side, one pillow stuck under his head so he can be propped up a little. )
Yeah. ( he exhales slowly, nodding. ) I'm fine.
( he would think about his mother visit and her presence and what it meant for awhile but he was okay. he was never going to have a great relationship with her and one night in a city like deerington wasn't going to change that. )
I promise. ( he thinks he can get past this one quicker than lexi's. it might be more painful in a way but it's not a lasting, eternal ache. )
[ folding his towel, she wipes at the back of her shoulder the best she can and then starts to press it against her collarbones and breasts. she knows she's going to have a faint pink stain on her skin, but she honestly doesn't mind. it'll go away, just like the open wound on her neck and back. at least both of those wounds for now will remind her of him and his apparent insatiable need to have her.
it'll also remind her of his continuing to trust her when she feels like he shouldn't.
she doesn't want to question him and ask if he thinks he will be. if stefan says he'll be okay in the aftermath of his mother's brutal words, then he will be. she'll make sure of it. she can't help but wonder if how he feels towards his mother is how her daughter feels towards her. but she can't let herself try and find an answer in the relationship of two different people. lily had the choice to keep stefan; katherine never had that luxury with nadia.
she twists her body to face him and arches her neck. ] Did I get it all? [ she still has blood beneath her chin and smeared all over the back of her shoulder, but at least her red neck isn't covered in wet and tempting blood. ]
( he smiles crookedly at her, taking the towel to dab at some errant spots and then letting it drop in between them. he sighs, reaching for one of her hands to play with her fingers while he figures out what to say or how to say it or if he wants to say anything at all. )
Thank you for being here tonight.
( to help steady him with his mother and to be there afterward for the connection he needed. )
[ she rolls her eyes at his comment. she's pretty sure he'd prefer her to smell a little like blood, even though she knows it would be incredibly tempting in the worst way for him.
when he takes her hand, she unravels her legs and lies down on her side to face him. she doesn't particularly want to be sitting and looking down at him tonight, even though his expression of gratitude makes her want to dive into the shower. being thanked is something katherine will have to get used to, won't it?
she shrugs a shoulder, wanting to downplay its meaning. ] Where else would I be? [ if he had gone through seeing lily by himself, she doubts she would've gotten at least half of what happened. hopefully being with him reminded him that lily was only one fish in a densely populated pond.
she glances down at his bare shoulder. ] You can talk to me about her if you want. Or not.
( he holds her fingers under his and then laces them together for a second before sighing. )
I don't know a lot about her. Caroline...made me turn off my humanity a little while ago. She threatened my only living relative and I did it to stop her from dying. My mother was the one who brought me back. She told me she searched everywhere, scoured the planet.
( he sighs and shakes his head. ) It wasn't true. She never looked. I'm glad she was able to get me to come back because I don't know what other triggers I'd have had at that point but it was all a lie.
[ she can't help her facial expression when he reveals everything. she frowns, very clearly judging and trying to picture everything he describes. mystic falls has changed so much since she last breezed into town. as much as she wants to ask him to clarify caroline and the no humanity situation, she doesn't think it's important. she also doesn't care in this moment. all she cares about is his mom.
she shifts so that she's a little closer to him and she tucks her arms against her chest. she's very aware both of them are physically naked and he's stripping himself bare emotionally. ]
Maybe she didn't look, and maybe what she said she did was a lie. Maybe she turned and she found that new family. But she still turned up twice for you. That has to count for something. [ she shakes her head. ] I don't think it was a complete lie.
( he's just not sure what it is right now. he's not sure if it means something significant or if she was feeling guilt and she wanted to absolve herself. he's not sure if he wants to believe the best or the worst.
he sighs and closes his eyes. )
I don't know what it is yet. I just...don't know what I want to think about her or why she was here.
[ her eyes narrow slightly in disbelief. ] Isn't it obvious? [ it is to her. katherine may not be able to relate to lily and her weakness in not fighting tooth and nail to have her sons with her, but she does understand what it's like not being able to express herself or understand why she's doing something that feels completely out of character.
she squeezes his hand in hers, shifting on the best so she's a little closer to him. gently, ] She wanted to see you, Stefan.
Why now? She had time to see me back in Mystic Falls. I wanted her to want me and she didn't want me then. What would change now?
( he can't help sounding wary and unsure. he doesn't even know if his mother loves him anymore. maybe she wanted closure and to hear him forgive her but he couldn't do that. that wound had cut deep and he wasn't ready to make amends. )
I don't trust her. I don't trust that this wasn't all a lie. Or something to make herself feel better.
I think your mother is many things, but being so oblivious isn't one of them.
[ maybe she covered her eyes back when she was human. perhaps she does it even now. but lily had a choice to show herself to stefan tonight, and she did it. why would someone who had survived giuseppe salvatore and whatever hell had befallen her ripper-self come all this way just to make herself feel better? she can't be that oblivious to stefan's hurt, and from what katherine had witnessed, she sincerely doubts she is. ]
She would've had to have known how you felt back home. You're not exactly the most unemotional person, Stefan. When someone hurts you, you let them know. And she seemed very... [ katherine pauses, searching for a word. ] available to hear whatever you needed to say to her, even if it made her feel horrible.
( there was more he could say, it was true, but it wouldn't have made a difference. the decisions were made and they couldn't be taken back. his mother had chosen someone else and while he hopes her new family feels loved and safe, it wasn't a feeling he'd ever gotten from her.
so, while he can understand what she's saying, he just can't...accept it. he can't let himself believe anything would have changed if his mother had stayed longer and he'd said what he needed to say. )
I don't really want to talk about her anymore. ( he sighs, giving his head a shake. )
[ quietly, ] Okay. We don't have to talk about her anymore.
[ his issues regarding his mother aren't going to mend overnight, and she doubts he'd be able to find peace regarding lily salvatore without having her here. but she can only hope that he feels a little better, even though she doubts it. she can't fathom not hunting down her family, especially her children, given that she had risked everything in 1498 to find nadia again. she wishes lily had done that for stefan.
sliding over towards him, katherine hooks her leg through his and clutches his hand to her chest. she doesn't particularly want him to feel alone, so all she can do is offer him a physical connection once again. with her other hand, she reaches up to brush her fingers against his hair. she doesn't want to see him shake it again. ]
( he watches her come closer, smile flickering across his face as she does before he glances down at his shoulder. there's still a mark where the wood had pierced but it's healing nicely at this point. )
I think the table got it worse than you or I did. I'll have to clean that up and buy a new one tomorrow.
( since he doesn't want to just eat in his living room all the time. )
[ she hates the fact that she's blushing. it'd been the first time in a very long time that she had broken anything during sex. it's the first time she truly did let go—and she feels a tad guilty that he now has to go and buy himself a new table. to her credit, she doesn't duck her head to hide her face from him. the less attention she draws to her flush, the better. ]
Maybe consider something that can withstand the strength of a 700 year old vampire.
[ since that's them combined. does that imply she wants to do it again? because she actually does. trying to break a sturdy table with him sounds like fun.
katherine lifts her hand to glide her fingers over his shoulder, unable to really stop herself from touching him. she may have his hand in her other hand, but it's not enough. ] I'm sorry about your table. May it rest in pieces.
That'll be the first thing I ask about when I speak to a sales associate.
( the 'if i want to have sex on this table with someone who can break a building in half, will it hold?' that would be a great story to tell when the sales associates tries t throw him out.
he snickers. )
It was a good table. I'm glad we got to enjoy it before we broke it into thoughts of pieces.
I may have led the charge in breaking your table, but I think it's your fault it actually broke. [ she states that as matter-of-factly as possible, with her tone leaving no room for argument. why would he argue with what she plans on saying next? ]
You were very awful in teasing me.
[ and by awful, she means very good, but giving him a compliment that isn't hidden between the lines of what she's saying isn't her being katherine.
have they ever really spoken about sex after having it? it's become this great elephant in the room when it comes to verbally acknowledge it. the elephant doesn't seem to exist when it comes to them physically escalating the situation again. ]
It's my fault? ( stefan scoffs and rolls his eyes but there's amusement in his voice. he thinks it had been both their faults because while he'd started it, she'd been the one to react in a way that broke his table. )
So, what's the excuse for cracking my sink? ( he hadn't really been teasing her then. ) If anyone got teased then, it was me.
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( he's fine with it. he can hire someone to come over and repair the cracked sink but right now, he has something else on his mind and it's not the fact that the smell of her blood is still in his nose and overwhelming him and he's still resisting biting her again.
he breathes shakily and cranes his neck a bit to look at her. )
Do you want to — ( stefan reaches around her, hand snaking down because she's come once but he knows he can probably get her there again. )
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leaning back against him, she makes a noise when she feels him shift slightly inside of her. with a smile, ] I think we should spare your house from crumbling even more tonight, don't you think?
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( he nods, using the arm around her waist to hug her to him. he sighs, leaning against her back and dropping his forehead down to her shoulder. he's tired but not overly so. he's emotionally cleaned up but being able to be with her tonight has helped. )
Do you want to come back to bed with me?
( he really hopes so. he doesn't want to be alone tonight. )
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[ she says it with no hesitation. of course she'll come back with him. there's no other place she'd rather be, even if he hadn't had his mother appear and possibly put him in a weirder place mentally and emotionally. she doesn't want to leave him alone unless he requests it, and even if he does, she'd take his couch or sleep in another room.
she does pull him to her in her own effort to hug him. she turns to face him as best she can and uncharacteristically kisses the top of his head. ] Take me to bed, Stefan. [ then she smiles, amused. ] Unless you'd like me to carry you.
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she's bleeding and black and blue and he starts to apologize but stops himself just as the words are coming out. he laughs and rubs at his mouth before shaking his head. )
Come on. ( he reaches for her hand, pulling her close and draping that arm over her shoulders. ) Let's go to bed.
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he wants to pull her into him, and she's not intending to step out of his embrace.
she walks slowly, trying to waken her muscles from staying in such a tight and tense position. her entire body feels sore, but katherine isn't going to complain. all she does is groan when she starts walking. ]
My hips are going to be so sore in a few hours. [ she laughs, reaching to palm the arm hanging around her shoulders. ] Don't say sorry. I like it.
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( he doesn't think she'll need it but he says it anyway. he winds them back to his bedroom, opening the door and then shutting it when they were both inside. he walks her over to the bed, letting her take a seat before circling around and sliding back into bed himself. )
Wait. ( stefan makes a face and rolls out of bed to grab a towel for her. then, he comes back, passing it to her so she can wipe at her neck since he doesn't think he should be licking it clean and tempting them both again. )
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she takes the towel from him and very hesitantly presses it to her neck. it's not out of any fear of it hurting her, but the fact that she's going to stain his towel and ruin another one of his possessions tonight. asking him to clean it up for her would be pushing him too far, and she doesn't want to corner him.
quietly, ] Thanks. [ she pulls a face of discomfort as she wipes up the blood, folding the towel over so she's not smearing it all over her neck and shoulder with a wet towel.
she moves to sit cross-legged on the bed and looks at him. ] Are you okay?
[ she's tempted to tell him she doesn't need the ice, but she does like him taking care of her. is that so bad? maybe he needs it after tonight, even though she feels like she should be the one looking after him. ]
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Yeah. ( he exhales slowly, nodding. ) I'm fine.
( he would think about his mother visit and her presence and what it meant for awhile but he was okay. he was never going to have a great relationship with her and one night in a city like deerington wasn't going to change that. )
I promise. ( he thinks he can get past this one quicker than lexi's. it might be more painful in a way but it's not a lasting, eternal ache. )
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it'll also remind her of his continuing to trust her when she feels like he shouldn't.
she doesn't want to question him and ask if he thinks he will be. if stefan says he'll be okay in the aftermath of his mother's brutal words, then he will be. she'll make sure of it. she can't help but wonder if how he feels towards his mother is how her daughter feels towards her. but she can't let herself try and find an answer in the relationship of two different people. lily had the choice to keep stefan; katherine never had that luxury with nadia.
she twists her body to face him and arches her neck. ] Did I get it all? [ she still has blood beneath her chin and smeared all over the back of her shoulder, but at least her red neck isn't covered in wet and tempting blood. ]
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( he smiles crookedly at her, taking the towel to dab at some errant spots and then letting it drop in between them. he sighs, reaching for one of her hands to play with her fingers while he figures out what to say or how to say it or if he wants to say anything at all. )
Thank you for being here tonight.
( to help steady him with his mother and to be there afterward for the connection he needed. )
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when he takes her hand, she unravels her legs and lies down on her side to face him. she doesn't particularly want to be sitting and looking down at him tonight, even though his expression of gratitude makes her want to dive into the shower. being thanked is something katherine will have to get used to, won't it?
she shrugs a shoulder, wanting to downplay its meaning. ] Where else would I be? [ if he had gone through seeing lily by himself, she doubts she would've gotten at least half of what happened. hopefully being with him reminded him that lily was only one fish in a densely populated pond.
she glances down at his bare shoulder. ] You can talk to me about her if you want. Or not.
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( he holds her fingers under his and then laces them together for a second before sighing. )
I don't know a lot about her. Caroline...made me turn off my humanity a little while ago. She threatened my only living relative and I did it to stop her from dying. My mother was the one who brought me back. She told me she searched everywhere, scoured the planet.
( he sighs and shakes his head. ) It wasn't true. She never looked. I'm glad she was able to get me to come back because I don't know what other triggers I'd have had at that point but it was all a lie.
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she shifts so that she's a little closer to him and she tucks her arms against her chest. she's very aware both of them are physically naked and he's stripping himself bare emotionally. ]
Maybe she didn't look, and maybe what she said she did was a lie. Maybe she turned and she found that new family. But she still turned up twice for you. That has to count for something. [ she shakes her head. ] I don't think it was a complete lie.
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( he's just not sure what it is right now. he's not sure if it means something significant or if she was feeling guilt and she wanted to absolve herself. he's not sure if he wants to believe the best or the worst.
he sighs and closes his eyes. )
I don't know what it is yet. I just...don't know what I want to think about her or why she was here.
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she squeezes his hand in hers, shifting on the best so she's a little closer to him. gently, ] She wanted to see you, Stefan.
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( he can't help sounding wary and unsure. he doesn't even know if his mother loves him anymore. maybe she wanted closure and to hear him forgive her but he couldn't do that. that wound had cut deep and he wasn't ready to make amends. )
I don't trust her. I don't trust that this wasn't all a lie. Or something to make herself feel better.
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[ maybe she covered her eyes back when she was human. perhaps she does it even now. but lily had a choice to show herself to stefan tonight, and she did it. why would someone who had survived giuseppe salvatore and whatever hell had befallen her ripper-self come all this way just to make herself feel better? she can't be that oblivious to stefan's hurt, and from what katherine had witnessed, she sincerely doubts she is. ]
She would've had to have known how you felt back home. You're not exactly the most unemotional person, Stefan. When someone hurts you, you let them know. And she seemed very... [ katherine pauses, searching for a word. ] available to hear whatever you needed to say to her, even if it made her feel horrible.
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( there was more he could say, it was true, but it wouldn't have made a difference. the decisions were made and they couldn't be taken back. his mother had chosen someone else and while he hopes her new family feels loved and safe, it wasn't a feeling he'd ever gotten from her.
so, while he can understand what she's saying, he just can't...accept it. he can't let himself believe anything would have changed if his mother had stayed longer and he'd said what he needed to say. )
I don't really want to talk about her anymore. ( he sighs, giving his head a shake. )
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[ his issues regarding his mother aren't going to mend overnight, and she doubts he'd be able to find peace regarding lily salvatore without having her here. but she can only hope that he feels a little better, even though she doubts it. she can't fathom not hunting down her family, especially her children, given that she had risked everything in 1498 to find nadia again. she wishes lily had done that for stefan.
sliding over towards him, katherine hooks her leg through his and clutches his hand to her chest. she doesn't particularly want him to feel alone, so all she can do is offer him a physical connection once again. with her other hand, she reaches up to brush her fingers against his hair. she doesn't want to see him shake it again. ]
How's your shoulder?
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( he watches her come closer, smile flickering across his face as she does before he glances down at his shoulder. there's still a mark where the wood had pierced but it's healing nicely at this point. )
I think the table got it worse than you or I did. I'll have to clean that up and buy a new one tomorrow.
( since he doesn't want to just eat in his living room all the time. )
Maybe something reinforced this time.
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Maybe consider something that can withstand the strength of a 700 year old vampire.
[ since that's them combined. does that imply she wants to do it again? because she actually does. trying to break a sturdy table with him sounds like fun.
katherine lifts her hand to glide her fingers over his shoulder, unable to really stop herself from touching him. she may have his hand in her other hand, but it's not enough. ] I'm sorry about your table. May it rest in pieces.
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( the 'if i want to have sex on this table with someone who can break a building in half, will it hold?' that would be a great story to tell when the sales associates tries t throw him out.
he snickers. )
It was a good table. I'm glad we got to enjoy it before we broke it into thoughts of pieces.
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You were very awful in teasing me.
[ and by awful, she means very good, but giving him a compliment that isn't hidden between the lines of what she's saying isn't her being katherine.
have they ever really spoken about sex after having it? it's become this great elephant in the room when it comes to verbally acknowledge it. the elephant doesn't seem to exist when it comes to them physically escalating the situation again. ]
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So, what's the excuse for cracking my sink? ( he hadn't really been teasing her then. ) If anyone got teased then, it was me.
( with her encouraging the biting and all. )
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